everyday, i am constantly learning something different about myself. whether it be something small...such as being forgetful or something more important...like taking people and lessons learned for granted. i am unsure why, but one day this week..i had a moment. not like a "bitch fit" or anything like that, but i was just full of so much emotion. i wanted to cry, but i held my tears back because crying is good..but it is something that you will not catch me doing unless im angry or in serious pain.lol...ok ok ok maybe a watery eye here and there..but its probably just allergies lol.

but yeah, i was at work and i was fine, like totally fine; actually i was eating, so i know i was happy lol and i was talking to the mister, who also makes me very happy..but for some reason emotion just came over me and if i was alone...i would have definatly let those tears flow.

I truely believe that crying is something that needs to be done while in a healing process; but that's just IT...i wasnt hurting; mentally nor physically.

I decided to end my lunch early and get back to work.

I spoke with my mom about it, and she told me that they could have been tears of happiness; REALLY?

i didnt buy that for a minute.

BUT i began to wonder..could she be right? was my random stream of emotion ALL due to me being happy? Am i really THAT happy? i didnt think so, but WHAT IF (<------ dont you just love those"what if's" lol) i truely am, and that was my body or mind expressing to me that I or ITS in a happy, comfortable state?

thats AMAZING.

"Got my dreams, got my life, got my love.Got my REAL frens, got the sunshine above."